There’s a saying here that goes, “Del dacha alfecho hay niche trecho.” What it means is that there is a space between the things we say that we need to do or know is right, and actually doing it. Sometimes that space is big, and in order to accomplish the things we want. We need to make the space smaller.
I’ve heard before that everything we want is outside our comfort zone. I believe that the “space” is our comfort zone and as a missionary, you become well acquainted with being outside of it. The past month I’ve learned a thing or two how to handle being outside of that zone.
This is my first time away from home and I’m in a foreign land in which I don’t speak or understand the language very well. And by that I mean I only understand five percent of what people say and can only pick out words because they speak so fast. I put those words together, form a message in my head (hoping that it is correct_ and trust on that when I respond. I’ve never felt more vulnerable than I do now teaching and sharing with others what is most important to me and the biggest part of who I am. The biggest thing for me is the language barrier and everyday I have to put myself out there. As i do that I am learning how to rely on the Spirit to help me communicate and say the things that people need to hear.
I believe we can get to where we want to be with 2 things: 1) Goals and 2) The atonement of Jesus Christ. There are two parts of a goal. First, is what you want to accomplish. Second, is the way and means you are going to accomplish what you want. Without both together, it is just simply a wish, desire and dream. Goals turn our wishes and hopes into actions (Preach my Gospel, Chp. 8 “Using Time Wisely”), which turn our dreams into a reality. As a missionary I am constantly making goals; personal goals, companionship goals, goals for member and investigators, language goals, daily goals, hourly goals, weekly goals… All day. Errday. But really though, those goals give direction in what I need to do and I can fill the days with activities that will bring me closer to what i want done. This is something I wish i did more before the mission. I would have been able to do so much more and more productive with my time.
I feel myself being stretched in ways I never thought were possible. But because of that, I am growing as a person and making big changes in my life. I wouldn’t be able to make these changes without the Atonement. Christ is everything to me. I know that He is the only person who clearly understand every singly personas heartache, pain, difficulties and guild because He suffered and overcame all, even death. I cannot fathom His experience, but I know He did it for one reason: Love. Love for our Father and for every soul. I’ve found stregth in Him and have been filled with His love. And that has made me and continues to make me into a better person,
We truly can do anything though the Atonement as it says in a scripture in the Book of Mormon
“Nevertheless, the Lord God shouted us our weakness that we may know that it is by His grace, and His great condescensions unto the children of men that we have power to do these things” Jacob 4:7
We don’t have to walk alone. We can invite Christ into our lives by allowing His Atoning sacrifice change and heal our hearts.
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